I think THIS and THat about this and that...

 I guess this will just be in point form cuz I don't know where to begin - its been too long
I'm not giving up blogging, however neglectful I get!




- Littlest A is standing up by herself!
- she's 10 months
- she'll walk soon

-  too much has been happening.  too much of it not being what I'd planned
-  I am growing in self awareness.
-  Trying to live simply, focus on abundance but not be controlled by want for it



- this year I have about 13 different varieties of Tomatoes growing!
- from black cherrys to grays sweet to cherokee purple to indian stripe... Brandywine and romas...
- my greenhouse is seriously producing things every day.  

- starting to get fruits on the tomato plants!

- My garden this year is all fun!
- Its a mini Mandala (circle) garden!  a series of Keyhole gardens



- and then plants stuffed in every open space too!
- these photos can not describe the thing for how it feels to stand inside...
- but you may get the idea

- this year I mulched the heck out of the garden, dont want weeds and dont wanna water
- lots of mulching with sawdust
-got a big load of half rotten straw from a friend farming family

- I got a job.  Doing Carpentry! building a new hospital in this town
- I can not start the job until I get a drug test confirmed
- I have take TWO tests (requiring a 1.5 hour drive to the city to pee in a cup)
- BOTH tests were "diluted"
- so I can not start work.
- now I need a frickin doctor's note which takes 2 weeks to get into... wow.

- its ever so challenging because money is TIGHT at the moment

HAhaha, this is me in 2009 when I used to be a carpenter type worker!!  before children... and in the mountains...

- but in a way its ok, cus I am enjoying my kiddos more than ever right now.
- this is my affirmation I keep saying daily, trying to believe it:

"I am open and receptive to ALL the good and abundance in the universe! 
 THANK you, life!"

- I have Louise Hay to thank for that one :0)

Helping with the rhubarb cake!  She's ACTUALLY a good helper! already...

- two happy bonneted kids! (one being bitten by a mosquito)
- they take every possible chance to be naked...
- especially in the yard...  and by rivers..  and inside houses.


- my future seems uncertain although we do have big plans for the next couple years.

- one certainty is this:

I will always be on the right path.

...If I choose to believe that I am.

and yes, it IS that simple.

- me in my mid- 20's

- my heart aches for what I used to be and where I used to be. 

- the Yukon in particular.  I had planned to be there right now. 

- although I know that where I am is just as significant to my growth as a beam of light on this planet

- our home, our garden, our small town, our little flat province, our family, our friends : these are growing happy content kids.  

- when I chose to be content and happy with what I have, I truly am.

-If you are wondering what the hell's the somber back story about, that will come later...  when the time's right to share it.

Beet juice smiles

- we are doing the best we can with what we have.  Despite all the shit, I think its pretty good!
- i am grateful for my family.
- and Xavier Rudd.
- and banana ice cream.